Welcome My Child

Alhamdulillah, Thummal Hamdulillah.
With Allah’s Mercy, Bless and help, I have delivered a baby boy on 17 January 2011:n 7.40 am at the wieght of 3.55kg.
I did nothing so there is nothing to claim, as a servant of HIM, HE did everything and we just strive to do everything up to the very best that we can achieve according to what HE ask us to do.
Merely, as a sign of obedience to ALLAH. Everything, at the first place is ibadah, not an effort to prove anything but everything we did is a sign of fullest submission to HIM. So that, we wouldn’t feel well this is our effort, this is my benefit, this is my specialty so on and so forth.
What I’m going through right now, is not a new story at all. All mummies is going through the same process over and over again. Yet again, this is a new phase for me The new challenge is just begin.
What amazed me most is having a baby, I learn a lot of myself from him and at the same time it help me to improve myself as a person. Beside that yes, he is an invidual himself, we can do everything based on what we think the best from him, but the end of the day, he is just well….himself + a servant of HIM who will grow according to Allah’s plan. We just….do the very best as a servant can do.
May Allah’s bless, love, guidance and endless help will assist this new journey of mine. Amin.

First Letter To My Child

First Letter

My child soon to pop out,

Here I’m with you inside my tummy.

Like a popcorn popping
Or goldfish swimming in a pool

Or like butterflies fluttering
You are here inside me

وَ الَّذِي يُصَوِّرُكُمْ فِي الْأَرْحَامِ كَيْفَ يَشَاءُ ۚ لَا إِلَـٰهَ إِلَّا هُوَ الْعَزِيزُ الْحَكِي
He it is Who shapes you in the wombs as He wills. La ilaha illa Huwa (none has the right to be worshipped but He), the All-Mighty, the All-Wise.


There is no guarantee,
I can be a mother
Or not
I can see you grow
or not
I can hear you called me mom
or not

We only

وَهُوَ الَّذِي أَنشَأَكُم مِّن نَّفْسٍ وَاحِدَةٍ فَمُسْتَقَرٌّ وَمُسْتَوْدَعٌ ۗ قَدْ فَصَّلْنَا الْآيَاتِ لِقَوْمٍ يَفْقَهُونَ
It is He Who has created you from a single person (Adam), and has given you a place of residing (on the earth or in your mother’s wombs) and a place of storage [in the earth (in your graves) or in your father’s loins]. Indeed, We have explained in detail Our revelations (this Qur’an) for people who understand. Al-An’am:98

But rarely people

Verily Allah, with Him (Alone) is the knowledge of the Hour, He sends down the rain, and knows that which is in the wombs. No person knows what he will earn tomorrow, and no person knows in what land he will die. Verily, Allah is All-Knower, All-Aware (of things). Luqman:34


Our Arif Billah have said:-
We plan this and that
Only little did we know
What we have is ONLY today
Tomorrow is never absolute
Will come
Will we ever make it?

وللَّهُ يَعْلَمُ مَا تَحْمِلُ كُلُّ أُنثَىٰ وَمَا تَغِيضُ الْأَرْحَامُ وَمَا تَزْدَادُ ۖ وَكُلُّ شَيْءٍ عِندَهُ بِمِقْدَارٍ

Allah knows what every female bears, and by how much the wombs fall short (of their time or number) or exceed. Everything with Him is in (due) proportion. Ar-Rad:8

Here I’m
Carrying you
There is nothing absolute yet
Nothing to be proud of
Since its nothing about me
Or you
Everything is all about Allah
Returning to HIM
As a slave
We are
Since from the very beginning
We are
Having nothing

وَاللَّهُ أَخْرَجَكُم مِّن بُطُونِ أُمَّهَاتِكُمْ لَا تَعْلَمُونَ شَيْئًا وَجَعَلَ لَكُمُ السَّمْعَ وَالْأَبْصَارَ وَالْأَفْئِدَةَ ۙ لَعَلَّكُمْ تَشْكُرُونَ
And Allah has brought you out from the wombs of your mothers while you know nothing. And He gave you hearing, sight, and hearts that you might give thanks (to Allah).ٍ “Surah Ar-Nahl:78


Can you listen to the beautiful ayah above
Don’t ever forget
We come from nothing
Allah give us something

يَا أَيُّهَا النَّاسُ إِن كُنتُمْ فِي رَيْبٍ مِّنَ الْبَعْثِ فَإِنَّا خَلَقْنَاكُم مِّن تُرَابٍ ثُمَّ مِن نُّطْفَةٍ ثُمَّ مِنْ عَلَقَةٍ ثُمَّ مِن مُّضْغَةٍ مُّخَلَّقَةٍ وَغَيْرِ مُخَلَّقَةٍ لِّنُبَيِّنَ لَكُمْ ۚ وَنُقِرُّ فِي الْأَرْحَامِ مَا نَشَاءُ إِلَىٰ أَجَلٍ مُّسَمًّى ثُمَّ نُخْرِجُكُمْ طِفْلًا ثُمَّ لِتَبْلُغُوا أَشُدَّكُمْ ۖ وَمِنكُم مَّن يُتَوَفَّىٰ وَمِنكُم مَّن يُرَدُّ إِلَىٰ أَرْذَلِ الْعُمُرِ لِكَيْلَا يَعْلَمَ مِن بَعْدِ عِلْمٍ شَيْئًا ۚ وَتَرَى الْأَرْضَ هَامِدَةً فَإِذَا أَنزَلْنَا عَلَيْهَا الْمَاءَ اهْتَزَّتْ وَرَبَتْ وَأَنبَتَتْ مِن كُلِّ زَوْجٍ بَهِيجٍ

O mankind! If you are in doubt about the Resurrection, then verily We have created you (i.e. Adam) from dust, then from a Nutfah (mixed drops of male and female sexual discharge i.e. the offspring of Adam), then from a clot (a piece of thick coagulated blood) then from a little lump of flesh – some formed and some unformed (as in the case of miscarriage) – that We may make (it) clear to you (i.e. to show you Our Power and Ability to do what We will). And We cause whom We will to remain in the wombs for an appointed term, then We bring you out as infants, then (give you growth) that you may reach your age of full strength. And among you there is he who dies (young), and among you there is he who is brought back to the miserable old age, so that he knows nothing after having known. And you see the earth barren, but when We send down water (rain) on it, it is stirred (to life), and it swells and puts forth every lovely kind (of growth)

When at first we started from nothing
And have nothing

So dear child

Tough I never know
I have a chance to be a mother or not
Please be remember of these ayah
That I keep reciting
That keep makes me shedding my tears
On the realization
Of how weak we are
Of how nothing we are
As a servant
As a human
Of GREAT Allah is
As Our Lord

He knows you well when He created you from the earth (Adam), and when you were fetuses in your mothers’ wombs. So ascribe not purity to yourselves. He knows best him who fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him [i.e. those who are Al-Muttaqun (the pious.)An-Najm:32


Don’t ever
Don’t put yourself up
Don’t be arrogant
In front of HIM
In this world

He indeed
Is A GREATER Creator
Be humble
Be obedient
Be fair
Be sincere

As you gonna return to him
Only bringing your heart and soul
Returning to ourself
To a complete

Your mom-to be
Sumayyah A.Aziz
20th October 2010

Waiting Just For The Right Time


This is the right time. It is.


I think the times has just arrived.

The time for me to delete this blog. I can’t write consistently. Furthermore, on my side there are several preference of topics which I love covered here that I’m not able to pour forth for several reasons.

Well, that not important since it is not the point. Balaqh is what matters.

But I think this is the right time. I will –maybe– stopped blogging in this site but I wouldn’t stop writing.

I still undecided but this decision, but it might go there.

Till I decide to the absolute conclusion, I would love to thanks those visitors who still visited this humble blog.


Abu Sa’id al-Khudri related that the Prophet (saw) said in his khutba during the farewell pilgrimage,

“Allah will bless whoever hears these words and whoever understands them, for it may be that those who pass on this knowledge are not those who will understand it the best. There are three things concerning which the heart of a believer should feel no enmity or malice: devoting one’s actions to Allah, giving counsel to the Imams of the Muslims, and being loyal to the majority.”


[1] Sahih, Ibn Ma’jah; also Ibn Hibban, Marwarid adh-Dham’an, p.47, on the authority of Zaid ibn Thabit.

Beautiful people do not just happen.


The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths.

These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep, loving concern.

Beautiful people do not just happen.

–Elizabeth Kubler-Ross’

Oh, so very true. I can’t help but immersed by this qoute. I have met lots of beautiful people. Inside and out. Those who love me the way I am, who has a gentleness despite the harsh world. Loving and caring in their own way. They are very different yet so similar.

They are all are beautiful.

If you are not petty in giving love, then you are beautiful already.