Catatan: Meneladani Perjalanan


Suatu masa dahulu. Sekadar sebuah catatan lama pasca 2007 – di awal 2008. Sebuah perjalanan bernama hamba.

Entri Repost: -Old Version-

Oh, umurku (telah) menjangkau …. tahun, namun aku sudah tua. Aku sudah tua dengan dosa-dosa!

Sambil-sambil aku cari kitab yang boleh dibaca di bilik ini, tertarik dengan satu buku yang tajuknya sahaja boleh mengundang kontroversi bagi sesetengah pihak. Sambil membaca dengan teliti dan cuba membuat perbandingan dan meletakkan diri aku di luar kotak dan bersikap adil dalam menilai. Buku yang kebetulan aku temui bertajuk ” Hakikat Tarikat Naqsyabandiah “. Selalunya apabila aku membawa buku-buku berkaitan tasawwuf atau toriqah, aku akan terus dihinggapi dengan sense of doubt dalam hendak mencari keputusan dan perbincangan ilmiah yang benar-benar memuaskan hati, ruh dan akal aku. Aku bukanlah tahu banyak sangat, jesteru aku belajar dengan guru-guru, berbincang, bertanya dan membaca dari pelbagai buku yang pro dan kontra. Sambil-sambil membelek dan menyeluruhi isi kandungan aku seolah-olah mengembara dalam satu kembara ilmiah, Buku ini sungguh seimbang dalam penghujahannya dari pihak yang menolak dan menerima toriqoh. Sambil-sambil itu, aku juga merasakan akulah yang menjadi antara subjek yang terlibat dalam perbincangan dalam buku yang ditulis oleh H.A Fuad Said ini.

Aku tidaklah punya banyak pengetahuan tentang Tarikat Naqsyabandiah, namun ada juga beberapa buku pro dan kontra aku telah baca dan diskusi bersama mereka yang lebih ‘arif, alim dan faqeh dan juga teman-teman. Namun aku bukan ingin mengupas isi kandungan dan keputusan muzakarah ilmiah yang diselanggarakan oleh Seketeriat Dakwah Majlis Ulama Indonesia Tingkat I Propinsi Sumatra Utara di Medan pada 20 Disember 1987 dan pada tanggal 26 November 1989 yang telah menatijahkan terbitnya buku ini.

Terdapat banyak karangan-karangan Ulama’ Salaf, fatwa-fatwa ulama’ kontemperori dan pandangan-pandangan individu tentang tariqoh. Suka untuk bersikap objektif aku selalu melihat kepada kedua-dua pihak dengan pandangan yang ilmiah dan adil. Namun kadang-kadang terdapat ketidakadilan dari kedua-dua pihak terutamanya pandangan yang datangnya dari generasi muda sekarang. Semasa empat tahun di ardhil anbiya’ dahulu tidaklah pula aku cenderung untuk mengetahui secara mendalam malah tidak mencari/menggali walau suka akan ilmu tasawwuf. Aku belajar dengan pelbagai guru samada mereka yang digelar salafi jadidah/alamadzhabiah dan juga syeikh-syeikh lain juga. Tidaklah aku bercadang di sini untuk membuat kesimpulan tentang muzakarah tersebut di entri ini, mungkin lain kali dengan izinNya. Tetapi aku ingin muhasabah diri yang selalu sangat leka. Tidak semua perkara dapat dilihat dan dinilai melalui zahir akal dan teoritikal ilmiah semata-mata.

Kadang-kadang aku harap aku boleh bawa keluar hati aku kemudia cucikan dan lihat kesihatannya. Entah sihat entah tidak. Dalam banyak-banyak perbincangan dalam buku ini aku tertarik dengan kata-kata yang dinaqalkan dari Syeikh Abu Hassan As-Syadzili yang sangat aku hormati dan segani. Kalau dikira akan kutub khazanah warisan Sheikh As-Syadzili tidak lah terkira banyaknya. Ibn Taymiah juga mengutip banyak pendapat Abu Hassan As-Syadzili mengenai pelbagai masalah.

Ibn Daqiqil ‘Id menegaskan:

” Saya tidak pernah melihat orang yang paling mengenal Allah dari Syeikh Abu Hassan As-Syadzili”.

Kata-kata mutiaranya yang dinaqalkan dalam buku ini yang buat aku terduduk sendiri atau yang telah menampar hati aku yang keras ini adalah:

“Apabila dzikir terasa berat atas lidahmu, anggota tubuh berkembang menurutkan hawa nafsumu, tertutup pintu berfikir untuk kemaslahatan hidupmu, maka ketahuilah bahawa semua itu adalah petanda banyaknya dosamu atau kerana sifat munafiq yang tumbuh dalam hatimu. Tiada jalan lain selain dari berpegang teguh kepada jalan Allah dan ikhlas dalam pengamalannya “.

MasyaAllah. Jamie wal Mani’ kalam Syeikh As-Syadzili. Menyeluruh. Sekejap. Aku ingin lihat hati sendiri sebentar.

Dan aku teringat akan satu puisi yang dilagukan oleh Sheikh Zulfiqar di sini bertajuk “Change My Dead Heart “. Haha. Aku ingin ketawakan ( atau menangis? ) diriku sendiri. Akulah itu yang punya hati yang hampir mati.

p/s:New Version will coming soon, inshALLAH.

Tea Breaks: What Books Are You Reading Now?


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Bismillah


In several night ago, I insist I want to read some fictional novel for a change. I know it wouldn’t do much at my current state at that time. Furthermore I’m more than realize it will only be an escapism for me but still I wanna try. Something that almost long forgotten.


Any Sophie Kinsella’s will be good I told my husband. I know that kind of books is sort of my guilty pleasure. I know I got nothing from the readings except fun’s of reading. Usually at previous days, I wouldn’t buy just any fictional novels. It will be only a waste I would say. On the way to the bookstore, I promise myself to improve myself a lil bit. I love reading philosophical and serious materials reading, of course. But when it comes to fictional novel I can’t help but to read either mystery, thriller, courtroom or humorous novels. On the other hand, I’m not so much into English literature. I love and prefer Malay’s literature more.

I have stopped reading this kind of materials long time ago. But after I’m married my interest has arouse back. Without realizing it I have started my old habit. No harm done isn’t it? My husband is cool about it so it one of the reason that encourage me to borrow those books from the library of buy it tonight. So I thought. But I promise myself that night I will TRY too look for an inspiring fiction novels or true story based l to get my hand onto.


So finally! Alhamdulillah I manage to grab two books. Now I’m currently curling with these two books :-

1) Princess: A True Story of Life Behind the Veil in Saudi Arabia



Upon bought this book I can’t stopped but immense in it. It was a page turner and revetting reading I might say. Though I skipped some part but I finally manage to complete in just couple of hours. While we were walking to the car park that night I can’t help but being glued to the book.

It is an autobiography of one the princess in Saudi Arabia. Using first person narration and with a simple and clear language this book is addictive and appealing in many ways.

Sultana, the main character of this book is a spunky, rebellious, adventurous, witty and intelligent young princess direct descendant of the founder of the current Saudi monarchy. This book tell us her story and her journey.

Well, I have lots to say about this book. But since I skipped some parts I will postpone my review later for it to be objective as it should be.

I have a mixed feelings about this book. It consist some feminism elements, human right issues along with an misunderstanding of the real Islam through the whole execution of the story. Some part I just wanna tell the narrator, that is soooo not true or it doesn’t work that way.

At the same time I have to admit that this story is really happening in most of the Khalaji country. The most shocking part is this book has proven some issues that I have once heard from K. Dini during our late night discussion of world issues back in our room in UIA. When I listen what she said at the moment, I found it hard to believe but I’m still digging it. What I mean was, I believe it despite the fact I found it so unusual for me. (I will spare this part for the next review).

Currently I’m doing some reading of certain Saudi woman and women who marry to Saudi man’s blogs. Things is not as pleasant as we thought it should be. I know that Saudi government itself has certain issues to deal with especially regarding royal, politics and woman policies but I never in my wildest imagination think it will be this cruel. Talk about presenting the real Islam.*Sigh. (Still I still some issues to confirm this book either factual OR fictional basis).

And the second book comes from one of the author that I found respectable on his genre;Nicholas Spark.

Once before, I have read almost all his books. Though I took a good interest in his books but I have to admit most his book present the same premise. A character that has lost someone their love and finally meeting someone knew OR a character that found their long lost love back. On the other hand, this book somehow manage to generate my interest in terms of finally it manage to evoke an elements of realism and created a different execution comparing to his other books. It is not your eye candy or lovey dovey books if you ask me. It is realistic.

Just by reading the prologue of the books I know I have to buy it. This something that related to our daily life. I want to buy some humorous novel but I found none so I grabbed this book instead.

2- The Wedding
Cover of The Wedding (Sparks, Nicholas) by Nicholas Sparks

Initially I have said to myself, I don’t want a tearjerker books that will made me cry a bucket. I have had enough of those melancholy feelings already. But this book is different. Most of all, I and my husband can definitely relate and learn from the main character and their marriage. This one piece actually if I may add is the sequel of the popular THE NOTEBOOK. But it didn’t present the same execution of the original except how to you uphold your love. While Notebook is romantic and full of sentimental value with melancholy kind of writing, The Wedding promise otherwise.



Wilson is 50 something husband to a kindhearted woman. Their life is ordinary without so much hassle or arguments going on between them. They live an ordinary and comfortable life that one day Wilson thought that did he become a husband that he should be to her wife? Was his wife still love him or did she has fallen out of love of him.


He is faithful. So was she. He is dependable. So was she. They didn’t intrigued by any kind of extra marital affairs. But what triggered their life is their own internal life.

During that times, they didn’t have anything to talk. Their marriage rather than be sharing each others moments has turn into a routine. Whilst Wilson himself has become deeply grown more in love than he ever felt to his wife he thought they have become more distance in many ways than before. And my! Wilson blame that all to himself.

This is one story that been inspired by the character that the author really know. We can easily relate to it that in order to have a contend marriage it does required more than just a love. It’s required most of all right way while entering the marriage, a clear intention when one’s want to get married. Later on, understanding, compromising, tolerance, accept each other as they are and most of all as Habil Ali said to build a marriage that will please ALLAH and His Rasul.

At the same time love need to be nourish and flourish everyday. This is a story that we might be turn as the character has once become if we didn’t learn from their mistakes and wanting to improve ourselves.

This is story how to rekindle back your long forgetten love and how to be a better spouse to your wife or husband. Be it you as a wife or you as a husband.

Love need to be enhance (and work hard for it) in order for it to be eternal.

So, what do you think of these two books? I would love to hear the thought for my sisters too. Of course, they are not even an example/role model to begin with. But as a Muslim who will grab any life changing experience be it comes from any human being will surely gain if not many at least a little benefit from it. Immense with the story and later nourish it with the sunnah of the Prophet and teaching of the Salaf that has left us a distinguished example for us.


Let spilled out the beans and share with us what books are you into now! Any kind of books will be great for that matter.

Weil China: Ulasan II


 

 

“Gadis yang aku cintai hanya menggerak-gerakkan jari jemarinya. Dia tidak mengangkat tanganya agar orang lain tidak memahami, namun aku memahaminya.

Suara lemah emakku yang meraung meminta tolong. “Tolong emak Qan!” masih lagi terngiang-ngiang di telinga.

Berikan kami sedikit kebebasan!

Duniaku bagaikan gelap gelita sewaktu gadis yang aku cintai meludahi mukaku di hadapan khalayak ramai.”

-Sedutan buku Weil China-

Ulasan Buku


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[Kemaskini 2009] Weil China: Ulasan I


 

Sebuah Entri Lama Di Blog Lama: Mac 24 2006

 

Ketika menemui gadis Turkistan di masjid UIA sebentar tadi berbaur pelbagai rasa. Rasa gembira amat juga membawa  ingatan  kembali kepada sebuah pembacaan yang banyak memberi kesan dalam hidup saya.

 

Ya, sebuah novel adaptasi kisah benar yang berlegar sekitar Turkistan dan penyeksaan Muslim di sana oleh satu ideologi kejam iaitu Komunis yang membawa penganut Islam ke daerah perit. Satu era gelap yang tidak pernah akan dapat kita bayangkan.

 

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Choosing The Right Way: Said Nursi


I really love to read Said Nursi book’s and digging into his legacy since Sister AlBazrah has introduced me to his biography, life and books. His books really put a string into my heart and his words spoken through his books seems so lively and full of rational explanation and logical analogies of the existence of Allah. Indeed if we read his book we will fell like he talk to us. In short, Said Nursi’s book really hit the nail on the head.

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Komentar @ Ta’liq Hadis أم زرع


Hadis أم زرع ini terkumpul dalam himpunan hadith-hadith dalam Kitab Syama’il Muhammadiah. Alhamdulillah saya telah mendapat sanad hadis ini semasa Daurah Kitab Syamail Muhammadiyah  sebanyak dua kali menghadiri daurah kitab hadis tersebut semasa menuntut dahulu di Mesir dahulu.

Apabila Ustaz Hasrizal menyebut tentang kisah 11 Wanita Jahiliyyah  dalam entri beliau yang terbaru bertajuk ” Lebih Baik Dari Abu Zar’in” yang merupakan intipati salah satu hadis dalam Kitab Syamail Muhammadiyyah ini yang dikenali sebagai Hadis Ummi Zara’ dikalangan penuntut pengkhususan Hadis, membawa kepada simpanan  saya iaitu ta’liq atau komentar yang detail oleh senior saya di Maahad Azhar, Penang.  Beliau telah mengamanahkan kepada saya sebagai moderator blog sekolah kami untuk dipost dan diedit tulisannya mana yang perlu.

Asalnya, komentar hadis ini dikongsi sebagai memberi sanad hadis ini yang bersambung kepada sesiapa yang berminat. Namun oleh kerana saya telah menerima Sanad hadis ini dari ‘turuq rijal’ (Jalan perawi) yang lain, maka hadis ini menjadi khazanah bermanfaat buat perkongsian kita semua.  Namun dengan rasa sungguh  berbesar hati saya tetap bersyukur dapat menerima sanad hadis ini dari jalan yang berbeza. Dengan sedikit pengemaskinian,  tambahan nota kaki dan pengajaran  hadis saya berkongsi di laman ini.

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Recommended English Books


Books Is An Open Journey

 

 

During the previous Books Exhibition at PWTC, I have to be on duty in one stall as an employee in one company. So, I had some times to wandering around and looking for my favorite books. While there is a lot of books that caught my attention but my budget was very tight that day. Oh, I’m a -bride to be- that times and lot’s of money has to be save so I only bought two very great and inspiring books. First is Ruqaiyyah Waris Maqsood ‘The Muslim Marriage Guide’ and then I grab  Maulana Wahiduddin Khan Simple Wisdom: A Daybook Of Spiritual Living’ as my second book. 

Unlike many others  marriage related books that I have bought or read before, I never heard about this book. My bad maybe, but surprisingly this books is very comprehensive and helpful for married couple or those who are going to get married. Little that I knew until at this right very moment that she even been called as ‘John Gray’ of the Muslim world.! Remembered the so famous and most talk and discussed relationship book?. “Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus.” and all the prolongation series? Then, this one piece should be read to any bride or groom to be.

Yes, indeed both above books is very insightful and inspiring. Highly recommended for  those  who love to read something intellectual, challenging at the same time have the spiritual  enhancement. Both books is worth to buy and great to have. I will share some of my thoughts later.

Because one mistaken click, all my reviews of this book has disappeared into thin air which make me feel quite frustrated. If I didn’t believe that everything is come from Allah I will shed my tears for this  trivial matter and because I believe on the contrary I will keep the tears for something better. I will continue writing after a few minutes after I gain the strength and refresh the idea back. Not that this is a big matter, but I still a woman aren’t I?